The rest is still unwritten…
I haven’t updated in a month or two. I’m overweight again. Actually, I’m at the highest I’ve ever been. It was hard burying the thoughts telling me to starve and purge but I did it. I stopped exercising and because of that, I’m fatter. I don’t care anymore. I want to be thin. This time will be different. I know I keep saying this but it will. Today, I will start. My disordered eating helped me lose weight. My life will always revolve around the fat I carry. It’s time to push others away again and focus on the greater good.
I need to be skinny. I will be skinny.
If it kills me, so be it.
Game on.
I hate it when thinspo blogs reblog pictures or text posts that say “Weight doesn’t define you.” / “Everyone’s beautiful, no matter what the number on the scale says.” / “Your body is gorgeous.” / “You don’t need to be size 00 and fit into an XXS to be stunning.”
It just seems really hypocritical.
(Source: unattainable--perfection, via unattainable--perfection)
